Welcome!

Dec. 27th, 2017 10:47 pm
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Welcome to my little piece of randomness on the web (also know as the place where I keep the Zaylor fic). For those of you who don't know, Zaylor is the pairing of Zac/Taylor from Hanson. Yes, they are brothers. So if you have a problem with that or with slash, then this is not the fiction journal for you. But that's exactly what it is: FICTION.

If, on the other hand, you think you might be interested in some Zaylor fic, read on....


( The Before We Began Series )

( Multi-Chapter Fics )

( One Shots )

I'm gonna friends lock this journal, 'cos it's what all the cool kids are doing. If you wanna read more than the teaser, just comment and I'll add you.

Thanks for reading! 

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The first chapter of each fanfic on this journal is public (except for Moments and The Fallout which are part of the Before We Began series and I count them all as one story). If you like what you've read and you want to read the rest, just comment on that chapter or here or any of the other public entries to be friended so you can view all the chapters of every fic here.

All one-shots, drabbles and shorter stories (less than 3 chapters) will remain friends only.

Hope you guys enjoy the read!

Wow...

Apr. 19th, 2011 08:48 am
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I was just informed by [livejournal.com profile] drunkinlov3 that I should check out the winners of the Theives and Liars Awards, and I was kind of completely SHOCKED to see that LLO won an award! I think this is the first award I've ever won for my writing, so THANK YOU so much to the people who voted for me!!



Congratulations to the other writers who won, especially those from the Zaylor community! It's great that so many Zaylor fics got recognition for once (but I still think we need our own Hancest specific awards... *cough*hearthat[livejournal.com profile] drunkinlov3?*coughcough*). ;)

ETA

Okay, so apparently I won two awards. lol :$



Seriously speechless. O.O I love you guys. ♥♥♥!!!
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I just deleted everyone from my flist. And I do mean everyone.

Maybe I'm kinda drunk, I don't know. What I do know is that I had 80 people on my flist and the vast majority of them haven't said a word to me since asking to be added. Maybe I shouldn't care about that, but I do.

Call me a bitch, roll your eyes, say I shouldn't care about feedback.

I. don't. care.

You try spending hours working on updates for a story, and having most of the people on your flist, who asked to read (no, I didn't beg anyone to read my fics, everyone on my flist ASKED to be there) never say a word about it. And I don't know about other writers on my flist, but writing is personal for me. It means something to me, it's like opening myself up to people in some way, putting some part of myself on display. And when the majority of people just walk away without saying a word, it hurts.

I've been writing Zaylor for 3 years now, and I have never demanded that people comment or be cut. I've never held a new chapter hostage until I've received a certain amount of comments on a previous chapter. But for the last few months, I've become less and less patient and understanding about it. And I've seen other writers becoming frustrated, also. There's little give and take between writers and readers. We put our souls on display and too many readers snort it up like a line of coke and go on their merry way like they never even saw it. They don't give anything back. And eventually, it stops being fun for us as writers. We become drained and demotivated, and then we disappear. And you wonder why.

I'm not saying people have to comment on every chapter. I'm not even saying they have to comment every 10 chapters. But if you've been on my flist for six months, and you've been reading the whole time, and you haven't said anything to me... I'm sorry, but that's bullshit.

If my writing sucks so much that you have nothing nice to say about it and therefore don't say anything at all, then this cut won't bother you because you don't like my fics anyway, right?

And if you like my writing, and read it frequently, but never leave feedback... *shrugs* I don't get it, honestly. People often say "I read but I don't have time to comment!", and I do believe that sometimes this can be true. But not all the time. If you have time to read 3000 words, you have time to comment on them. I personally don't read something until I have time to both read and comment it, because I know it's not fair to the writer if I just tear through their work like it's nothing and walk away. They put time and effort into it, if I don't have time to acknowledge that with some form of comment, I don't allow myself to read at all until I do.

For those of you who read and leave feedback frequently, I apologize. I know this cut is inconvenient, but I know that at least a few of you know what I'm talking about because you are writers yourselves.

If you WANT to keep reading, comment to be readded. But if you don't intend to leave feedback from time to time (and I mean because you think my writing is actually worth your consideration, not just because you're trying to meet some kind of undefined comment "quota"), then please don't ask to be readded.

I'm sure a lot of you think I'm stupid for doing this. Again: I don't care. It's gotten to the point where I spend most of my time feeling that my writing is so worthless that I have zero motivation to continue doing it anymore. And I'm sure those of you who don't write (and maybe some of you who do) will say that if I don't have motivation to write without feedback, I'm not doing it for the right reasons. Maybe you're right. But honestly, these stories are in MY head. I know these characters, I know where they're going, I know how they get there. I tell these stories in the hopes that other people will see something in them that they can relate to or at least be entertained by. If they're not, then what's the point in me writing them down? And how am I supposed to know who is actually enjoying (or even hating) these stories unless they say something every once in a while. I'm not asking you to blindly kiss my ass here. If you have constructive critisism, that's fine!

So It was either this drastic friends cut, or no longer posting my fics at all. In an effort to be fair to the people who do give a damn and do want to continue reading, I decided to try this first.

If I only end up with 10 people on my flist after this, so be it. At least it'll be the 10 people who I know actually care about the time and effort I put into these stories, whether that effort is evident to the rest of you or not. I'd really rather have 10 readers who genuinely care than 100 who don't.

Thanks.
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Title: Teacher's Pet
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath
Genre: Hanslash, Drama, Romance
Rating: PG-13 (R in later chapters)
Pairing: Taylor/James (OMC)
POV: James
Summary: “What would you do if one of your students had a crush on you?”

AU. Set in 2000.


I just posted a new story over on [livejournal.com profile] darenotlove that I thought I'd pimp here in case anyone was interested. It's a little different from other hanfics I've written, mostly because it's told from the POV of an original character rather than one of the Hanson brothers or third person. Some of you know James (aka Jammy) from my other stories, "What If...", "A Place Called Home", and "Let It All Out". But this is a different James.

Basically, it could be a different person entirely, but since this fic (which I started a year ago, btw) was supposed to be a birthday gift for [livejournal.com profile] iluvmuhbois, and she adores Jammy, I used him. Same look, same name, same family and friends, but with a slightly different upbringing and therefore different life story. We were joking about how hot it would be if James was Taylor's teacher in high school, and this is where it led me... I guess you could say this is yet another "what if..." lol What if Taylor had never become a famous rockstar at age 14, and James's family had never disowned him over his sexuality? Who would they have become, and how would they have crossed paths...?

This fic was originally supposed to be a smutty one-shot. But I suck at those, because I hate porn without plot. And even though there is plenty of porn in this fic, the plot took on a life of it's own and went from one shot to... well, currently I'm on page 79 and still going. lmao I said I wasn't going to start posting until it was finished, but apparently if I get bored enough I do stupid things.
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I just wanted to let you guys know that I have started a new community to post my Hanslash fics on. Not that I have many, but I have 2 in the works, and since they're not Zaylor fics I didn't want to post them on this journal and spam those of you who aren't interested in anything but Zaylor.

The fics (so far) are about Taylor with another guy. In one fic it's Tommy Joe Ratliff, and in another it's an OMC that most of you are pretty familiar with by now (no, not Marsten). :p

I just posted the first of two (for now) parts of a Taylor/TJR fic, and I hope to finish and begin posting the Taylor/OMC fic by Christmas or the new year. It'd be nice to see some of you guys over there, but if it's not your thing I totally understand.

[info]darenotlove



(you need to join the comm to see the fics, but membership is unmoderated, so you won't have to wait to be accepted)
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I was just removing a few deleted journals from my flist and I thought I may as well do another friends cut/add.

I just removed 5 people from my flist who have unfriended me. And I am apparently on the flist of 67 people who I have not friended. I don't know how many of those people are people I cut in the past because they no longer wanted to read my fics (they never responded to a friends cut and asked to be kept), and how many are people who have added me without telling me and therefore haven't been added to my flist yet.

Usually people comment on one of my public posts and ask to be added, but incase there are any people out there who added me and never told me, please comment here and I'll add you. Similarly, if you were on my flist before and want to be re-added, please let me know here and I'd be happy to add you back again.

Thanks!
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Hey guys!

[livejournal.com profile] imreadytojump and I got to talking lately, and we decided to start a new Zaylor community. It's for fanfics, fanart, videos, and just general squeeing over our favorite, unnaturally touchy-feely-starey brothers. But the thing that makes it kind of different from other Hancest-centric communities is... we don't care about the sex. Or it's one of the least important factors, at least. I realize some of you just completely lost any and all interest you had in joining after reading that, and that's totally fine. But if you're still interested in sharing fanfics/art/vids/ideas about Zaylor that have less sex in them, we'd love to have you! You can find out more by visiting the community and reading the info and rules.

[livejournal.com profile] x_handsclean_x

I've been doing a lot of thinking about what I loved about Zaylor, and what drew me into writing fics, and which fics of mine I'm most proud of, and which fics by other people are most special to me. I don't know if I've just been in this writing community of ours for long enough now to have seen the less "innocent" side of it, but I really miss how I used to feel about it. I know that [livejournal.com profile] imreadytojump feels something very similar, and I'm not sure if this new comm will help us to get back some of what we feel we've lost, but we're hoping it will. And if not... well, we'll deal with that later. lol We just want something of a fresh start, I guess.

Hope to see some of you there! Please spread the word if you think you know anyone who might be interested in joining!
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Title: Life Less Ordinary (1/?)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath
Genre: Hancest
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Zaylor
POV: Zac
Word Count: 2313
Summary: Even though there was a very tight knot in my stomach, and my heart was pounding a little faster than usual in my chest to let me know that I shouldn't read any of the letters in the envelopes, I swallowed my apprehension, pulled the first slightly crumpled piece of notepaper out, and unfolded it.

AU. Set in 2002/2003 (though Taylor's hair is set in 2004/2005 lol). No fame. No siblings. No Tulsa.

Author's Note: This story isn't finished, but despite my "finish fics before posting" policy, I'm going to slowly start posting chapters anyway.

This story is for [livejournal.com profile] drunkinlov3, because she has been cheering it on since I first started writing it almost nine months ago. In fact, she's been cheering this story on since I first told her the basic idea I had for it over a year ago, and without her I probably wouldn't be so close to having it complete. I love you, Sammy! ♥


( Part 1 - Lonely )



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I just did the friends cut I've been warning about. I cut exactly 2/3 (80) of the people on my flist. If you were one of them, it was nothing personal, it was simply because you never replied to the friends cut post I made 2 weeks ago (and posted a reminder about one week ago). I thought 2 weeks would be plenty of time for people to comment if they wanted me to keep them on my flist, but if I was wrong and you missed it, or you never noticed it, or you just forgot to reply, or you did reply and I cut you by accident, or whatever, just comment here and I'll re-add you.

♥
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Hey, guys!

I know it's kinda been a while since I posted anything (for those of you who don't read the Tay/Jammy stuff over at [livejournal.com profile] homefic), but hopefully that'll change. I'm working on a new Zaylor, I think I've got about 5ish chapters done so far, and I have another idea rattling around in the empty space where my brain should probably be, so we'll see how that works out.

But I did just finish a one-shot (only I'll probably have to post it in 2 parts because OpenOffice and LJ won't play nice and the formatting gets screwy and LJ says my post is too large and... *sigh* whatever). It's basically just some porn without plot that I wrote for Sammy. Only... it has more plot than porn, really. Don't act like this is a surprise, I wrote it. I'll post the first part tomorrow, maybe. Definitely by the end of this week.

Anyway, the main point of this post, besides letting you know my love for Zaylor is very much not dead, is because I'm gonna follow in [livejournal.com profile] chockablock's footsteps and finally make myself do a friends cut. I'm not one for friends cuts, I've never demanded people comment or I'll cut them or whatever, but I have had this journal for about 18 months now and I've never done a big friends cut on it before now. And I know for a fact that there are several people on my flist who I don't know well at all and who don't even seem to read/write Zaylor anymore, so... *shrugs* there doesn't seem to be much point in them being on my fic journal flist.

If you want to stay on my flist, just comment here. A smiley face is fine, you don't need to give a reason or anything, I just wanna make a list of people to keep. Anyone who hasn't commented on this post by June 9th is going to be cut. It's not a personal thing, I just want to clear up my flist and get rid of (sorry, I couldn't think of a nicer way to put it. lol) the people who aren't interested in reading my fics anymore. However, if you don't want to read my work anymore but you do still want to be my friend for whatever reason, feel free to friend my personal journal, [livejournal.com profile] justawordaway.

I figure two weeks gives people plenty of time to reply to this, but it's not like it's a permanent thing, people are welcome to ask me to friend them again if they miss the "deadline" or if their Zaylor love is sparked again somewhere down the line and they want to read my fics.

♥!


ETA

One more thing I just remembered! Most of you know I usually don't post stories until they're finished, I don't post chapters as I write them, I wait until I've finished the entire fic. I do this because I don't want to write 20 chapters and then run out of steam and never finish the fic at all. I feel like it's frustrating when authors just ditch fics after people become interested in them and excited by them, I've done it myself before and I didn't want to do it again. But... do you guys actually give a crap? lol Would you rather I stick to finishing stories before posting them or post chapters whenever they're done, even if there's a good chance the stories might not be finished or there might be weeks or months between new chapters? Since I do it this way to avoid annoying you, I figured I should actually check and see if that's what you want. lmao
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Let It All Out

COMING SOON!

For the last four and a half months I've been writing a sequel to A Place Called Home. I went back and forth on whether or not to write it, but I had all these ideas and I couldn't stop thinking about it, so I decided to just go for it and see what came of it.

What came of it is an 85 chapter story called Let It All Out, which I've been told wasn't a total waste of my time (although the people who told me this are kinda biased :p).
I'll be posting the first chapter sometime later today, I think, and it will be over at [livejournal.com profile] homefic with A Place Called Home.

For those of you who don't remember, A Place Called Home was a story based on the characters from my Zaylor fic What If..., it was almost an "alternate ending" to that story.
It's not a hancest, but it is a hanslash.
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I've been writing a new fic for 2 months now and I just finished it last night. It's 53 chapters long and its.... NOT a Zaylor. But it is a Hanfic and it is a slash fic. It's about Tay and Jammy (you remember him, right?). I'd love it if you guys would give it a shot.
The first chapter is already up and I'll post more soon!


(click the banner to go to the fic!)


Title: A Place Called Home
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] thrashglam
Genre: Hanslash, Drama, Romance
Rating: PG-13 - R
Pairing: Taylor/Jammy (OMC)
POV: Taylor
Summary: A Place Called Home is based off of the characters and events in my hanfic What If.... It's an alternate ending, of sorts. I don't blame you if you haven't read that fic and decide not it's pretty long. But if you would like to read this fic anyway, there's some background on What If... HERE, which will get you caught up on the story so far and explain where this story picks up.


The story is posted on a members only community, meaning you need to be a member to read the story. Membership is unmoderated, so you will be able to read as soon as you join.
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^ clickie ^

No fic update today, I just wanted to link you guys to a new community for ALL things Hancest related; fiction, icons, graphics, videos, challenges, discussion... anything. It only opened this weekend, but we already have quite a few members and we've just started our first fanfic challenge. I've also posted a bunch of Zaylor icons and I plan to post some one-shots exclusively to that community in the future.

You don't have to actively participate to be a member (though it is encouraged, of course), but you do have to be a member to view the posts.

Hope to see you there! :D

What If...

Jul. 26th, 2008 12:23 am
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Just a heads up that I think I'm going to start posting the continuation of "What If..." on Monday. I haven't finished it yet, and I usually like to finish fics before posting them. But it's been 4 months since I posted the last part and I've written about 15 more chapters since then, so I'm going to post 1 chapter a week and hope that it gives me the kick in the ass to finish this thing. I don't know how many chapters I have left to write, I'm guessing possibly 10, maybe less. It might have been a complete mistake to even continue this fic at all, but I've got 60,000 more words written for it now and I don't want them to just sit here and never see the light of LJ.

But it is a continuation and not a sequel, so it will be called "What If..." and the first update will be chapter 7, not chapter 1.

For those of you who haven't read the first 6 chapters, you can find them here: What If...

For those of you who have and don't want to again or haven't and don't want to at all but do want to read the continuation, you can find a summary below to get you caught up and/or refresh your memory.

( Summary )


That was how the first installment of the fic ended. The next part will pick up about a week later.

I thought I'd give you prior warning that this fic was on the way so that anyone who hadn't read it or who didn't remember it and wanted to read it over again could maybe get that out of the way this weekend before the next chapter is posted.

I guess that's pretty much it...

♥
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Title: Mistakes We Knew We Were Making (1/8)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath
Genre: Hancest
Rating: PG-13 (possibly mild R in a later chapter)
Pairing: Zaylor
POV: Zac
Word Count: 3345
Summary: I was afraid I'd lose him if I spoke up, so I stayed silent. And I lost him anyway.

Set in 2002.


Author's Note: This was supposed to be a one-shot. But it kinda got away from me a little... (meaning it's a babbling mess!)

I already stated this when I was writing Before We Began and The Fallout, but I am one of those freak fans who actually likes to believe that the guys are happily married. This is just fiction, people. ;)

And it would have been posted FOREVER ago if [livejournal.com profile] drunkinlov3 would've stopped distracting me by talking about Zac's ass! (yeah, I said it!)

Much love and slightly inappropriate snuggling to my wifeloverbetaskankTHANNNG, [livejournal.com profile] thrashglam . ♥


Song: Blur - Coffee and TV



( Part 1 - Too Late )
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Just a quick post to say I'm working on something... two somethings, and hopefully one of them will be up by the weekend.

Also a note to people who want me to friend them so they can read the fics here: Please post a comment when you add me as a friend, that way I'll know you want to read and I'll friend you back. I noticed some people friended me and didn't tell me, so I never friended them back and they couldn't see the fics. I apologize for that.

Lastly, a few writers on my flist have made posts recently about not getting comments (which sucks :() and wanting to know who is reading their fics. [livejournal.com profile] thrashglam came up with the idea of asking people to just post a simple smilie face if they read a chapter.

I'm not gonna ask for smilies or threaten to take you off my flist, because I don't care if you comment (okay, so I care, but I can't force you to and I'm not gonna try). But if anyone on my flist with a minute to spare could fill out the poll under the cut, it would be mucho appreciated...o.

( CLICK ME! (you know you wanna) )

Oooh, also, if you're on my flist and no longer want to be, comment and tell me and I'll take you off. Thanks.
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Title: Paint it Black (1/17)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath
Genre: Hancest
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Zaylor
POV: Zac
Word Count: 2330
Summary: I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him for this.

Set in late 2007. No Nat. No Kate.


Author's Note: Um... hi. Started this fic a while ago. In my head. At work (because my job requires no thought on my part). It's somewhat based on a personal experience (kinda... vaguely). There will be some time jumping back and forth between the first few chapters, but hopefully it won't be confusing if you note the dates (if any) at the beginning of the chapters.


( Part 1 - Hate and Hurt )
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Title: What If... (1/34)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath
Genre: Hancest
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Zaylor
POV: Zac (the POV will switch between Zac and Tay from chapter to chapter)
Word Count: 4239
Summary: I know it's not right, I've known it since the moment it first hit me, but knowing that it isn't right doesn't make the feelings go away. Nothing makes them go away.


Author's Note: Well, here we go again. Just a short fic (although twice as long as I intended when I started writing it!). Set at the beginning of the 'This Time Around' tour in 2000 and absolutely nothing to do with Before We Began. Hope it doesn't suck.

Oh! And I don't think 14 year old Zaccy is fat! I keep trying to tell him he's hot, but he won't listen!


Song: Coldplay - What If


( Part 1 - Eyes )
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Title: Before We Began (1/3)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] breathe_abreath   
Genre: Hancest
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Zaylor
POV: Taylor
Word Count: 5092
Summary: There wasn't anything we could have done to make it work. It was over before we began.

This fic is set in early 2003 in Tulsa, towards the end of the IDJ Underneath ordeal. (I don't know if they were actually in Tulsa at that time, but I've read some sightings that seemed to suggest they were there at least some of the time)

Author's Note: I don't have a beta because I don't have any friends. 


( Part 1 - Losing Him ) 
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